Sleep in the Enemy, To a Toddler

My son hates a nap.

I think it’s a normal thing for children to be resistant to nappage, after all, we’re out here doing all this cool stuff and we put him to bed. He’s in there thinking “what are they doing out without me?”  Of course he is going to be upset that he gets to miss all the big people fun. Ty is always the center of attention, so hare dare mommy and daddy be awake and not devoting 100% attention to him. I know, we’re the worst parents ever. How dare we want our sweet little angel to rest and be able to function properly, because to hear him cry, we might as well be beating him senseless when we put him down for a nap.

But alas, I love the little monster, and do my very best to do what is good for him, even it I want to bang my head into the wall because of it.

But today he is wining the battle it seems.For the past hour he has been stumbling around the house tripping over his own toes, crying for my reason, climbing up and down me and my husband, He is  laughing hysterically if we are spinning, playing, tossing, or teasing him, but is whining and moaning the second we do anything else other than pay full attention to him.

We’ve spoiled him, terribly, I am afraid.

But it is so hard not to. He is beautiful and happy and vibrant. He is all the happiness, love. joy, hope, and dreams that my husband and I have inside up combined and balled up into one gorgeous, manipulative, spoiled little human being.

He is certainly going to make for a much more interesting life, and I love him dearly for it.

And mom, when you told me that my kid would be 10x worse than I ever was, you were right, you are right. You did it. You succeeded. He is a hellion. And you aren’t here to help me fight this battle, and honestly that is the one thing about you dying that has bothered me  the most. I miss you for Ty. I miss the happiness that was lacking in your life for so many years that I know he would have brought you. I miss the satisfaction you would have felt for seeing me realize that all those things you said that I disregarded were right. I miss that Ty will never see you covered in mud battling with goats, your father, the neighbors or anyone else that got in the way of something you believed in.

He’s going to be great mom. He’ll do some much more than I ever did and you will be so proud of him. He’s going to be my one big contribution to this world, I know. I just wish you could have lived to see it.