I wish that I could stop adding to my collection of hobbies and interests. I have far too many things I do, and therefore cannot do any of them exceptionally well. Jack of all trades, master of none. The problem lies in the fact that I hyper focus so intently on my hobby of choice at the time, that I disregard all others.
Is this normal? Or is there something wrong with me?
For example, right now I spend most of my free time clipping coupons, matching coupons to deals, and bargain shopping. I have a stockpile of hygiene products and other nonperishable items. I spend hours sometimes each week at each pharmacy and grocery store. Is it really even worth it to do all that. I mean really. What do I have to show for it? Free body wash? $0.99 Razors? Who needs that stuff? I mean really. I could do fine with VO5 for $0.79.
Before that it was sweepstaking. I would spend an hour at least every day entering sweepstakes. I won a few. Went vast periods of time without winning a thing.
I really need to focus on the important things in life. Like getting rid of all this crap that fills my life. I need to declutter and refocus. I need to stop being lazy and put things back in their home. I need to figure out what needs a home and put things there. I need to organize the chaos that is my home and life. But where would I even begin?
It seems that every time I throw something out, I get 3 to replace it somehow.
I have really got to decide what is important. If I haven’t used it in a year, do I really need it? What is it about me that keeps screaming out "you might need that, and then you would just have to buy it”. Surely I am not that consumed with materialism and money that I need to have a house full of clutter, or at least a basement full of clutter, at this point. Is that really what is important to me? Things?
I just don’t know. When I ask my husband to help me organize an area, or get rid of things he tells me “that’s not important”. I have to do these things a certain way. There has to be a method to the loss of these items. How can I make him see that it is important to me, and that it is a step in the direction to a cleaner, neater, happier life with less “things” and more serenity.
I need serenity. I need order. I need to stop holding on to all these things and let go. Not everything has value. If I haven’t worn it in a while, I will most likely never wear it again. There is no sense holding on to it. And honestly, who really wants my old crap? Surely no one is going to pay for it. I need to donate the useable items, recycle things that can be, and trash the others. If i want new things, I need to work extra and stop trying to pinch every dime. Its driving me crazy I think.
I need to focus on my family. I need to keep an orderly and organized home for them. I need to be an adult. I need to be realistic. I need to stop hoarding
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